Monday, February 11, 2013


We all have those little insecurities that aren't very noticeable to others, yet to that person they are.
You don't want to point them out, because once you do, they're magnified. And  everyone listens.
I have one insecurity that has become worse through my concussion.
If you listen to me talk,  you can tell that I can't pronounce 'ch', 'sh', 'g', or 'j'. It comes out funky.
I confided in my best friend and told her how embarrassed I get about it.
She understood, as she has her own insecurities as well. I asked her not to say anything about that and she promised she wouldn't.
About a month after that, she stopped me when I was talking privately with her and started imitating me.
It really bothered me, but I tried to keep the conversation going.
I thought she was just being silly, as I get with her a lot.
But I began to see a trend. When we were talking just the two of us, she'd giggle and stuff whenever I said one of those consonants.
Today, she completely betrayed me and teased me about it in front of her "former" crush and my former crush as well. When I looked at her, I couldn't even recognize her. She was laughing at my expense. Getting him to laugh with her at my expense.
I would never even think of doing that to her, and yet it seemed so easy for her to tease me about my insecurities, as well as my personality.
I think this friendship needs a little vacation.